Enjoy the finest food

So it's been a while. I've had a bit of a blog break to get alone with God and try to hear what He might be saying and now I'm back!!! It had been quite a dark time, not being able to see God or hear Him through the rubbish going on in and around me. I realize of course that He didn't go anywhere but I did! I went to every place I could think of to try and hide from His presence and to find satisfaction and all it did was drive me mad and make me even less satisfied! This morning whilst reading I came across a verse in Isaiah 55:2 'why spend your money on food that does not give you strength? Why pay for food that does you no good? Listen to me, and you will eat what is good. You will enjoy the finest food'. When I take that scripture at face value it tells me that there is no place I will find strength, peace and joy except when I draw near to Him and listen. It's interesting that in the King James version instead of food it says bread. I looked up a commentary and it said that the 'bread' is a contrast between the 'bread of deceit' and the 'bread of life'. In Proverbs 20:17 it says 'Bread of deceit is sweet to a man; but afterwards his mouth shall be filled with gravel'. But in John 6:35 it says 'Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty'. I've spent the last few months stuffing my face with gravel!!!

So why don't I always choose better? I guess like many people it's easier for me to get angry with God when I don't understand life and withdraw from Him. It makes sense as I hate confrontation that I choose to bury my anger and stuff it with gravel rather than come face to face with God and be honest. It takes a decision for me to choose to eat better (both physically and spiritually). So after not choosing better for a good month I am back in that place where I want to 'enjoy the finest food'. I don't just want the leftovers or the crumbs off the floor, I want to be seated at the table, next to the King feasting on Him who is all wisdom, knowledge and power. Why would I choose anything less?